dear, sunshine.
i wonder how many times i get so much happiness from merely seeing your smile. i wonder how many times i sent gratitude to the God for allowing you come into my life. maybe i took it for granted, for when you were away it finally hit me.
those three years were never easy for me. longing feeling sucks, but did you know that i was more afraid thinking about you never wanted to see me again? it is still scary even now. thinking about how you don't wanna hear my name is scary.
just like childhood memories, you too are precious to me. something that i don't want to lose, even if i am given bigger things. because you are the little happiness that all i have. one of many reasons i'm grateful to be born in this world, to meet you in the middle.
if you read past this, maybe you're already mine. maybe i can finally have you in my arms. and that only means i'll never lose my little happiness again. because i promise to myself not to make you sad anymore. but if i did, i want myself the one who will heal you. so you don't have to wander around looking for a shoulder to cry on. you can lean on me.
nothing last forever, that's one thing i know. but one thing you have to know, that i'm not one to give up easily. not on you. never on you. so i hope you will do the same. because i wanna be in this for a long time, i wanna be with you for the longest time.
you can read this letter again every time you feel anxious, to remind you how we start it all.
to the stars of my dark night sky, rainbow after the rain, sunlight to my sunflower
i love you.